“Essential” Retail during Quarantine

Upon clocking in today I was asked if I’ve taken my temperature before my shift.

“I don’t have a thermometer,” I said honestly.

Immediately my supervisor gave me one. It took several minutes but finally beeped. She then said I could keep it. THAT is impressive.

My employer, a family-owned local pharmacy, cares about protecting all of us.

Another new development was the table immediately inside the door to the East entrance, the only operational door right now. The front door has been locked to customers for over a week now. There are signs assuring people that yes, we are OPEN.

But the boutique has been closed since at least Wednesday, when I noticed it.

I feel so fortunate. I started just over two weeks ago, right when all this hysteria hit.

My employers could have easily just been like, “Sorry, you’re new,” and let me go. But instead, they’re keeping us on. That may change– or my hours may be cut. But for now, I’m still working.

That’s how we’re all living — day by day.

Since we’re no longer ringing up sales in the boutique, now my co-workers and I are helping out the over-flow in the pharmacy. We ferry medicine orders to the curbside pick-up customers waiting.

They have to call ahead and tell us what they need, and pay with credit cards over the phone.  They have to trust us. Even if they pull up not knowing, they can’t come in.

As I cleaned the door glass with Windex today to keep busy, I felt sad watching an elderly man peering inside. I wanted to go help him, but I had done that Wednesday and been scolded for approaching a customer. There is to be no contact between us if at all possible. If they need to show ID, we have to approach them with a small plastic bag and they drop their ID card inside.

I did this today with a woman– “Keeping things safe!” I said, smiling.

“I HEAR THAT!” she agreed. She felt taken care of. She was impressed with our vigilance.

We also are not allowed to touch our faces, and if it happens accidentally we must immediately wash our hands. We also have hand sanitizer for between sales transactions at the register– since money itself is considered “dirty.” Our hair is to be pulled up, out of our faces.

The only times we enter the boutique now is to ring up orders if the pharmacy register is in active use, or to clean. We dust, we vacuum. We Lysol.

In the pharmacy between orders we check products for expiration dates and mark out those we find.

I’m happily surprised to report that I actually LOVE working retail thus far.

I admit, until this point I always thought it was something to be avoided. I sold Blue Buffalo dog and cat food for five years as an in-store food rep– but that’s not quite the same. My job was to approach existing customers in PetSmart or Petcos in my area and chat them up. I would get to know about their pets and what made them special– then make a recommendation for products that fit their lifestyle and preferences.

I would carry up bags of food and face products, but I only had two aisles and the treat section to work. I didn’t handle money or work a register. It was part retail but mostly sales. I had goals to meet. My manager would come in for coaching sessions– but mainly I was autonomous. Of course the store managers were my superiors and had to sign off on my sheet each shift to prove that I had actually shown up and worked. I had to follow store rules, but I had no real “co-workers,” except other food reps– my competition. Most of us were friendly, except for the Bill Jac and AvoDerm people. They were savage.

I needed to know about our products to answer questions and reassure any doubts they had. I was there to convince them our product was better than whatever brand they may have previously been loyal to– it was mostly fun but quite exhausting socially. It was all talking and walking.

In straight retail, there’s a lot of variety. In the past two weeks I’ve learned how to sticker products, been assigned to put away orders — because that’s the best way to learn where things go and how I can locate them quickly for customers. I’ve learned several different transactions and how to move between them. I’ve made bank deposits. I’m primarily a closer, so most shifts I and another co-worker close down the tills and balance the drawer, then bring them up front. We lock the doors, turn out the lights. Clock out.

I also genuinely enjoy greeting customers and making small talk. Showing them products when they are looking for a gift. This week I’ve sold latex gloves to an older man who was concerned about the progress of the virus– he came in looking for a thermometer, as many do. It gave him visible comfort to buy something that was going to help be safe.

Now I have no idea when the boutique will re-open, when we will have actual customers in the store browsing again. I look forward to that simple return to normalacy.

People all over the world are getting laid off as businesses are forced to close their doors by national mandates.

But I am deemed an employee in “essential” industry– pharmacies, hospitals, grocery stores, truckers, gas stations, restaurants with curb-side, or delivery meals. Social services, bankers, child care, government agencies, teachers, and many more.

Never in my life did I think that these jobs would be the most table in a global pandemic.

After a year of unemployment, I am so blessed to have landed this job at this time.

Granted, I acknowledge my privilege.

I work in a safe, central location of Wichita. Our store is an upscale boutique with a local family-owned pharmacy since 1976 in the back.  None of our customers are dangerous. We have good hours and close by 7 p.m. Monday-Friday, 5 p.m. Saturday and 4 p.m. Sunday. Even when I’m a “closer,” I’m never getting home at late hours. When I previously worked at Starbucks for five months in 2007, I was a closer. My shift was 4-11 and if we were lucky we got done about 11:30, sometimes closer to midnight. My drive to work is also only about eight minutes.

God, thank you.

Protect our business, our customers, and our family, friends and neighbors.

Let us obey with safety recommendations and restrictions.

This is NOT the time for pride or impulsiveness.

This is the time for humility and sacrifice.

 

Schaudenfruede at the Supermarket

Caught myself tonight  breaking my rule!

I was riveted by a tabloid at Jewel. I’m one of those shameless people who will pull up to an aisle that’s closed, park my cart and read whatever I want without buying it. (But I have bought an incriminating number of these babies in the past, I admit!)

Tabloids are one of my vices.

As I closed it and moved on to check-out in an available aisle, I realized my crime.

What was my point in reading it? There it was. Envy.

Envy and gossip connected, boom.

I read about the Kardashians, Ben and Jen’s impending divorce, I looked at a story analyzing Madonna’s obsession with plastic surgery.

Fame is not what I want. Money, however, yeah. I envy that. What regular person doesn’t?

However, I *never envy the problems that come with that level of money. The exposure.

Did I feel a little self-righteous after seeing that these successful people have struggles just like regular people? Yeah, I did. Truthfully, they probably envy the simplicity of their former lives– when they could shop in peace. When they had quiet moments of anonymity, small moments like I enjoyed tonight.

I am thankful for the privacy of being a regular person.

Good for them, for finding a way to market their skills and become wealthy for it. Good for them for braving marriages and relationships when the entire world is literally analyzing their every outfit, date, and ordinary errand. They deal with much more stress than I anticipate ever having in my life. And they carry on working and living and parenting.

I am swearing off tabloids for the remainder of Lent.

Goodnight!

 

 

 

 

 

Deaf Girl Chases Eskimo Man: a Love Story

The jingle reached in and grabbed me out of intertia.

No sound in my left ear– but the right one still works. Mostly.

That saccharine floating melody paraded somewhere down my block and my legs responded. First, hesitation.

How could I find it with my eroded hearing? It’s pinpointing location of sound that’s impossible.

Nostalgia wins. Sprinting outside, I whirled to listen.

Veered left first, then stopped. Had I missed it?? He’s moving far away.

NO!

Like Inigo Montoya with his father’s sword, I ask for guidance in finding direction.

I stop.

We always called him the Eskimo Man, not the Ice Cream Man. Different truck, but same jingle.

Bomb pop. Must have a Bomb Pop!

I turn right and strain with my ears, scanning the block. Desolate.

Not giving up. Silence– out my range.

I run back to the center point at the end of my block.

I pray. God, where did he go?

I feel I should run to the right again. I begin…  and the notes reappear.

I bolt toward toward those promising notes, running like that truck is my First Love. And I just need to see him again one more time– just to know that I can still have those feelings. Just to remember there’s still a girl full of wonder living in me.

Nothing could have stopped me, and nothing was in my way.

The Eskimo Man appeared, making a left turn from around the corner to my right. He turned into the intersection, going up my street.

I run toward the truck, catching up from the left.  He sees me, slows, parks.

It’s white with a yellow sign– and “STOP for children.”

Smiling, I run to the other side.

And see the rainbow Sno-Cone. Sonic the Hedgehog, but not Mario. Where is Choco Taco??

The man smiles at me– a 33-year-old who chased him down, as excited as a six-year-old who saved their Tooth Fairy money.

“Can I have a Cherry Screwball?”

Yes!

“Do you still have Bomb Pops??”

YES!

“Three dollars,” he tells me. The recession has hit the Eskimo Man, too.

“LOWER PRICES!!!” the sign in the window reads. Black permanent marker on white paper– the “o” colored yellow, red squiggles for emphasis under “Prices.”

I pay him, and offer the two singles as a tip.

“Too much!” he says with a smile.

This man, who is driving an ice cream truck with prices LOWER than they were 15 years ago– is humble. I insist.

He smiles, accepts it.

I run home, put the Bomb Pop in the freezer for later– still red, white, and blue.

Now, I feast.

The conical frozen confection seems the same size– but the two gumballs are tiny. I remember just one, bigger, gumball.

But it’s not about the taste.

It’s about the fact that somewhere out there, The Eskimo Man still exists.

Objectivity and The Conservative Life

Recently, I wrote about how religion can be a damaging influence.

Tonight, I want to clarify that by saying that, I’m not putting down the idea of family or of the conservative life.

I’m not saying all religion is bad, either.

Being a former reporter, I’ve learned to look at things objectively and see both sides.

This morning I visited one of my oldest friends, who is a mother. Her little boy toddled around, and he is open and affectionate. I don’t get to see her as often as I would like, but he feels comfortable sitting with me.

I think that is a wonderful credit to her and her husband’s parenting skills, because he obviously feels very safe and is openly affectionate. I enjoyed having him snuggle up to me, and holding him was wonderful. But does that mean I will be a mom myself someday? Not necessarily.

The jury is still out on that one.

She talked with me, but always kept an eye on him as well. He clearly adores her, and she was delighted by the small things he did. He looks a lot like her also, with wild curls and many expressions that she makes. She’s a wonderful, happy woman who married her best friend and is in a marriage based on respect and equality. They talk all day long. They respect each other’s feelings, but also get out how they really feel about things as well. They’re not afraid to tell each other the truth. They both work, and support each other’s dreams. I have known her for over 15 years, and I can honestly say that marriage has made her a happier person. It’s enriched her life. She and her husband respect and love one another, and they balance each other out.

What’s interesting is that they are both also of different religions– but that was not an issue. They merged these two cultures, and did it with joy. They were in love, so they just made it happen. They are a wonderful example that you don’t have to stay within your own tradition or religion to find happiness in love, or to be happily married.

For them, marriage, family and religion are a wonderful center in their life together.

What does it mean to be “conservative?”

For many people, it’s defined by political beliefs. Many people assume that a conservative viewpoint is interchangeable with voting Republican. That’s not necessarily true.

Conservative can mean that your life is centered on family, that you don’t believe in sharing your problems with the world, that you’re careful with your money, and that you live a life of temperance when it comes to alcohol and or chemical substances.

Conservative is not necessarily a bad thing.

My friend has a phenomenal work ethic, a good job, a creative and charismatic personality that draws in everyone she meets, is a loyal friend that will never tell your secrets, and is a devoted wife and mother. She comes from a big family, and is naturally gifted as a mother. Being around her son and her family, she exudes this wonderful love. Yet, she’s also very protective when needed be. She’s not pretentious at all. She’s a big hugger. She laughs a lot.  I hold incredible admiration for her.

In some ways, she’s conservative. Yet, she also embraces and champions liberal causes.

I think all of this makes her a fantastic human being and one of my favorite people on the planet.

She’s like a sister to me.

For her, marriage has been something wonderful. She makes me believe in marriage.

Yet, there are many people who are happily single or in relationships but unmarried, who choose not to have children, who choose to focus on career, art, or travel or who don’t believe in religion. And they are equally happy, and I admire and respect them just as much.

And those choices are not any less valid.

Sale Value over Sentiment: Naming My Price and Rena Grushenka

All my life, I’ve been keeping things.

Things from my childhood. Things I accumulated along the way.

I come from a good, upper-middle class family. We always had what we needed–and more. My father had a great education, and made sure that I did too.

Until now, I’ve only saw myself in artistic terms. But I’m going to learn to be creative with saving, bargaining, and selling. I know that good money sense is in my genes– and I’ve got a lot of friends who are excellent with these skills as well.

I don’t want to be the starving artist cliche.

I’ll be checking in here– yes. I’m not going away. But when I started Unrelenting Amee, I thought I may be running ads on here by now. I thought I’d find a way to make money as a writer on this blog. And granted, I haven’t invested the time to do it. But I’ve had other concerns. That’s real life.

I’ll accept my blog for what she is– something I do for myself. But it’s a luxury, also.

I’ve been in sales for so long now.  And I’m realizing there’s a lot of things I can sell if I just take the chance and let go of it. Do the research, so I don’t get taken advantage of when haggling with vendors.

Right now, many people have been flooded. They’ve lost their belongings– the basics. I don’t need all this stuff. Until recently I wanted to donate a lot of it– and that’s the Christian thing to do. But I need money to get by myself.

So I plan to donate some of it, and sell other things that will help me to pay off bills faster.

I don’t need all these. Clothes. Furniture. My car– that is something I definitely need.

It would be nice to have more space, actually.

Necessity is making me practical, rather than sentimental.

Don’t get too excited now! I’m not becoming a Republican. 🙂

But my feelings right now are summed up by a passage from one of my favorite books, White Oleander, by Janet Fitch.

To pre-face, it’s about a girl named Astrid who drifts along the foster care system after her mother goes to prison for murder. She’s been through several homes at this point– and Astrid has had almost everything taken from her. Her mother, her innocence, and now her latest foster mother, Rena, has gone through her belongings and wants Astrid to sell them. Rena supports herself and the teen girls she takes in by making a living hustling flea markets. Astrid sees that Rena has taken her own clothes without permission, and is now livid:

“Someone gave it to me,” I finally said to Rena.

“So?” Rena looked up from her hangers. “You’re lucky, someone gave to you. Now you sell, get money out.”

I stood there sullen, my arms full of T-shirts.

“You want car? Artist’s college? You think I don’t know? How you think you pay? So this dress. Pretty dress. Someone gave. But money is…”  She stopped, struggling to find the words, what money was. Finally, she threw her hands up. “Money. You want remember, so just remember.”

So I did it. I marked a price on my crimson velvet dream. I marked it high, hoping it wouldn’t sell. I marked them all high. But they sold.”

In the end, Astrid becomes a tough woman who learns to survive on very little– and she channels what she’s learned into being an artist. She learns a lot from Rena. People want to buy her work. She’s just getting by, without much safety. But she’s doing it on her own terms.

I can’t be like that just yet– I’ve got bills I’ve got to pay first before I can be that hardcore.

But I want to learn to be more like Astrid. And every day, I’m feeling smarter.