Because you (I!) deserve a love letter today. Self, you are always by my side!
First, I am proud of you.
I see a woman who has nothing to prove this year. She is wearing overalls because they are what she feels comfortable wearing, and she’s STOKED at the ’90s are back in that style! With it, a pink and white baseball shirt because it’s a little feminine but also practical. Today she is wearing no make-up. Her hair is shorn in a pixie, which makes her feel free– she loves the feeling of the icy wind on her neck. She often goes without a hat, but zips her coat up to the hilt instead.
This year has been about realigning with what you need, and putting that into action. And you are making great strides every day! Even when you think I don’t notice the progress, I do. Even when no one else does, I see.
I believe in and admire you, Amee. I adore that name– your mother chose it with care. It’s not something to be found on pencils, which you used to resent. It’s singular and a little bit exotic–French. There is nothing typical about you. You forge your own way in every aspect of your life– you don’t do things like everyone else.
You are unafraid to sacrifice in the present for something you know will be better in the future. You are committed to what you need even when it’s not fun or popular. You are learning to value your own voice most. You can weather questions and the assumptions of others with increasing grace.
Like all humans, you have walls to protect yourself. Your heart is not impulsive as it once was, although sometimes I know you long for those days. Those were beautiful times of innocence, important to teach you lessons. Of loss, of how to lose yourself in giving. Of appreciating someone even when they don’t understand why you love them. You seek to understand others and comfort them.
You know how to love with abandon, commitment and safety.
You accept that not everyone deserves what you want to give– you are more patient. You demand that people prove to you that they are sincere. Never admonish yourself for that– it’s been learned with fire.
You always rise. You may slow down, you may hold yourself back with caution.
But conserving your energy and valuing what you possess to give others is something wonderful and smart.
Keep doing that.
Everything that you need is on its way to you. It is happening at exactly the right time and speed– just continue to trust in your judgement.
You are more real than many who put up a better facade. When you’re not happy, you don’t pretend. You’re polite and professional when needed, but never insincere. That is something glorious– the ability to know how you’re feeling and not be ashamed of it. That takes tremendous courage– it’s a skill not everyone has yet learned.
That writer heart of yours beats steady. I can always depend on you. We are always together.
Whatever comes your way, you will handle it with aplomb.
I am grateful that you preserve that delightful spark of silly, that propensity for wackiness. I am glad that you see beauty in the most ordinary circumstances.
You are loyal, affectionate, serious.
Thank you for not changing for anyone.
You are my favorite. I love you! You are beautiful and strong.
You are making peace with uncertainty and deciding to be your own hero.
And that is the best Valentine’s gift I could ever give you.
All the Love You Possess