To Write, or Not to Write?

Lately, I’ve been questioning all sorts of things that I considered basic truths about myself.

Chief among them is WHY do I want to write?

Writing is a tricky thing. It’s a creative power, like music and art.

But it’s also a tremendous responsibility.

Writing opens doors that I’m not sure I want opened, honestly.

Sure, I could continue publishing and make money.

Maybe even a lot of money.

But with each piece I publish, I surrender more of my privacy.

And the very act of writing demands solitude. To do it for a living mandates a life of constant isolation. I don’t think I want that. But writing has been the most consistent aspect of my life– how can I break that pattern now?

Also, I don’t want to be so “in my head.” I’d rather be doing more practical things. Interacting with people.

I feel lately as if the bravest thing to do would be to NOT write. Life live without chronicling it!

But it’s ingrained in me. It’s who I am. It’s something I need to learn to manage.

Writing can become a compulsion, like any other.

Temperance.  Maybe that’s the lesson artists need to learn.

Can I learn it?

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2 comments on “To Write, or Not to Write?

  1. Girl, I hear you!! I’ve been thinking the very same thing lately. Why am I writing? And further, I feel like I want to do more living out there, instead of being so cooped up “in here,” like you said. Blogging takes a TON of time and energy – it’s all-consuming. Perhaps there’s a balance somewhere in there?

    Personally, I just signed up for a ballet class (yay! been wanting to since I was a kid), and am looking into volunteer work…Just to get out there and enjoy life a little more away from the computer screen. We’ll see what happens!

  2. mancuso79 says:

    I will paraphrase Hunter S. Thompson. A story never takes shape until you inject yourself into the mix. Buy the ticket, Take the ride. Wise words to live by, if you can accept the experiences you encounter.

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